This place is paradise I'm sure
here's my reservation
I've gotten lost here once before
inside a good vibration.

My name is Lauren. I was born with my heart in Manhattan. I love shoes and funny people. I think too much.

So I write.

31st December 2009

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2009 Reflections: I don’t know if it’s the combination of all-too-realistic movie watching tonight at my friends house -“It’s Complicated” and “500 Days of Summer” -to paint a clearer picture for you. That Ingrid Michaelson song “breakable” stuck in my head. Or maybe just the realization that much of life really is out of my control. But I find myself exhausted, with my trademark headache, unable to sleep on this- officially- New Years Eve. And when I get into a funk-for whatever reason- there is only one semi-productive thing I can do to keep myself from going crazy, and that’s write. Each year I get older, I can’t deny that things get better, but they also get harder and more complicated.  Just because something gets easier, doesn’t mean it isn’t still a huge challenge. Patterns, I have learned, aren’t just found in wallpaper. And often, the only way you grow is by both failing,  and being forced to look at the ways you disapoint yourself. Resolving to change those things, those insecurities, that are holding you back. And the confusing and painful times that come highly concetrated with the good, well I know they are preparing me for when it “really” counts. I’m really not being deppressive. It has been a great year for alot of reasons. In alot of ways, the things I have now, though they are far from perfect, are almost entirely things I used to only dream about, and often questioned as to there ever happening at all. After all, 10 years ago, the most exciting things in my life were the super-sugary SOBE drinks my parents had bought for me and my sister on New Years Eve ‘00 (oh damnn!), and the fact that the world did not blow up at midnite. So cheers 2009, I am a better, stronger, more confident, less crazy, more qualified, and mature person because of you. and watup 2010 Now let’s make all that mean something. =)

2009 Reflections:

I don’t know if it’s the combination of all-too-realistic movie watching tonight at my friends house -“It’s Complicated” and “500 Days of Summer” -to paint a clearer picture for you. That Ingrid Michaelson song “breakable” stuck in my head. Or maybe just the realization that much of life really is out of my control. But I find myself exhausted, with my trademark headache, unable to sleep on this- officially- New Years Eve. And when I get into a funk-for whatever reason- there is only one semi-productive thing I can do to keep myself from going crazy, and that’s write.

Each year I get older, I can’t deny that things get better, but they also get harder and more complicated.  Just because something gets easier, doesn’t mean it isn’t still a huge challenge. Patterns, I have learned, aren’t just found in wallpaper. And often, the only way you grow is by both failing,  and being forced to look at the ways you disapoint yourself. Resolving to change those things, those insecurities, that are holding you back. And the confusing and painful times that come highly concetrated with the good, well I know they are preparing me for when it “really” counts.

I’m really not being deppressive. It has been a great year for alot of reasons. In alot of ways, the things I have now, though they are far from perfect, are almost entirely things I used to only dream about, and often questioned as to there ever happening at all. After all, 10 years ago, the most exciting things in my life were the super-sugary SOBE drinks my parents had bought for me and my sister on New Years Eve ‘00 (oh damnn!), and the fact that the world did not blow up at midnite.

So cheers 2009, I am a better, stronger, more confident, less crazy, more qualified, and mature person because of you.

and watup 2010

Now let’s make all that mean something.

=)